Questions that have been on my mind:
- what is the purpose of church? is it the same or different from the purpose of Christ?
- what does it mean, I mean, REALLY MEAN, to serve?
- what is, really, salvation? Is it possible to, as many churches would have you believe and do, save other people? This prospect makes me uncomfortable, as I tend to think that is God’s job alone, but what is our role as fellow human beings? What shape does salvation take in a life? Is it feeling loved and wanted by others and by God?
- How does one truly love one’s neighbor?
So yes, I know these are all big questions, but they have been on my mind, especially given my experience on Sunday with that church… the experience was so wrapped up in the needs and experience of the community that had already been welcomed (the insiders, if you will), which seemed so out of step with Christ that it made me wonder what the point of church is at all… because if it ain’t Christ, then what is it? Furthermore, who am I to judge where Christ is? What if I am wrong? Do I want to be a part of something that closes itself off and isolates itself from the real world? Is that the kind of love that I would want to receive?
So if you have any ideas or ruminations, I would love to hear them… these are big questions, and it is my suspicion, as with many things, that big questions are best wrangled with in community rather than alone, for it is in community that we face one another and open one another to our own experiences and form a more complete picture of how God might be working in our contexts.